Time to step back

Well the one thing im learning is that life is all about decisions...What hall? What Food? What Flowers? What the heck do I care? yeah you heard correctly! I could really not care less about the way my wedding will be. I guarantee you that no matter what by the end of the evening I will be married. So what if I get married in a nice place instead of the nicest! Are the guests coming to say omg what a great hall or its so nice to see you splurged on this and that extra. I sure as heck hope not. If they are coming for a meal they can go to Le Marais if they are coming for the ambiance im sure someone knows of some nice bar somewhere. I want the people who want to be there, not the ones that feel obligated. Its not about showing off although im not even sure anyone agrees with me. When did courtly love get replaced by gaudy overexpenditure. When did commitment get overshadowed by social politics. It's sickening and its about time we opened our eyes to what's going on. I will not be contritious about my statements, I may currently be both physically and emotionally exhausted but I think I have enough clarity of mind to bring to light what is buried within me.